Fooled Around and Fell In Love

I never expected an Elvin Bishop song to become my theme song.

I chatted online with Drake last night. We talked business for awhile.

"That isn't why you're here," he said after five minutes of chatting about Business X.

"I saw you online and I wanted to say hello. No agenda, " I replied.

I told him I was feeling blue. He asked why. I knew he knew, but he wanted me to tell him.

I told him that I was confused. I wasn't certain where my life was going. I needed more direction.

He replied that he would help me. He has been suggesting a two-year plan I should set into place to get me on my own feet and away from my husband, Dave.

Then what? Dave is all I have known my adult life. I have a fear of being alone and lonely. In 43 years, I have only spent one year living alone.

He told me I'm a terrific person and that I would find a wonderful partner. I told him that, in two years, the only man I will want will be him.

It took him awhile to reply. He said, "I might be too old for you!"

I knew he was trying to lighten the conversation, but it didn't help.

We chatted a bit longer. I know he has a sexless marriage, but he does have three teenage sons and he adores them.

After we signed off, I went to bed. I woke up a few hours later and sent him an email. A stupid email that I shouldn't have sent. A test to see how he really feels about me:

I think it would be easier to say goodbye to you now...before I feel the full sting of unrequited love. But I suppose I am a sucker for punishment and I will stay until I just can't bear it any longer.

His reply:

It isn't unrequited.